Dream of woke up, died, person

I have had nightmares almost my entier life. I have dreamed of death before. It always rattled me because I have always had the feeling that I will die young. I've accepted this feeling and I have accepted that I will die but I try not to focus on it too much because life is short. In this dream, I don't remeber the beginning which is odd because I always remeber my dreams. I remeber being at the a huge carnival and amusement park. Something happened, and it turnee out to be some awful thing. I don't know what happened but everyone was suddenly dyeing for differrent reasons. I found myself sitting outside and my skin was turning blue from cold. I saw someone's face who.I am pretty sure was a made up person from dreams when I was younger. He grew up with me in my mind before, in a dream, he drowned. But this was him, only older. He watched me freeze to death. When I died, it was like I was swollowed by darkness. Then a small light appeared in the center of the dark. It glowed, dimmed, the grew. I teyed to move toward it. I relized that I didnt hsve a body. I wasnt a girl or a boy or qnything. I was just a soul trying to movetoward a light and thats when i woke up.)