First crush/love Alex back in middle school. We were talking by the lockers during break time and he turned around and kneeled down and gestured me to get on his back. I asked "are you sure?" And he insisted, so I got on his back and he piggybacked me to science class. I was very happy and laughing while on his back. Then we get to science class and he let me down gently and I collapse to the floor in exhaustion and our science teacher looked at me and I said "don't ask!" Then science class was over and back to the hallways, I find Alex and couldn't get to him and was diverted to one of my best friends. There was an assembly going on. I wanted to sit next to Alex but it didn't happen and had to sit next to my best friend, Alex sat across us on the cafeteria table and suddenly we were on a long roller coaster, but I wasn't as happy as I was when Alex gave me a piggyback ride. Time skips forward and I dreamed of looking for Alex's house with my mother and another guy who seemed angry. We show up at Alex's house and Alex's mother, appearing single and smoking a cigarette and had a child. We go into the house with Chinese food, Alex'a mother didn't seem happy, Alex himself was nowhere in sight. Read moreYou entered: First crush/love Alex back in middle school. We were talking by the lockers during break time and he turned around and kneeled down and gestured me to get on his back. I asked "are you sure?" And he insisted, so I got on his back and he piggybacked me to science class. I was very happy and laughing while on his back. Then we get to science class and he let me down gently and I collapse to the floor in exhaustion and our science teacher looked at me and I said "don't ask!" Then science class was over and back to the hallways, I find Alex and couldn't get to him and was diverted to one of my best friends. There was an assembly going on. I wanted to sit next to Alex but it didn't happen and had to sit next to my best friend, Alex sat across us on the cafeteria table and suddenly we were on a long roller coaster, but I wasn't as happy as I was when Alex gave me a piggyback ride. Time skips forward and I dreamed of looking for Alex's house with my mother and another guy who seemed angry. We show up at Alex's house and Alex's mother, appearing single and smoking a cigarette and had a child. We go into the house with Chinese food, Alex'a mother didn't seem happy, Alex himself was nowhere in sight. July 25, 2014 > Read Dream Analysis
So i was at school it was a combination of smoky’s building and horizons. The school was surrounded by guards who were protecting us from a pretty evil force. We dinked around like idiots on our computers and were just overall having a great time. Me and jacobie were facing each other but our massive computers were in the way. We craned our heads to stare at one another which resulted in him smiling at me. We laughed and went back to whatever we were doing. Mr Delong burst in and told us that we all needed to leave the room right then and go to the basement, but at that moment the windows shattered. I looked outside and all of the guards were dead. There were these men standing over their bodies, and they looked up at me and the class with dark smiles. Cole jumped out and joined them along with many others. Me and jacobie looked at each other and ran out of the door. What was left of the class ran behind us screaming terrified. We got downstairs. And they were all gone I was the only one left in the ballroom. I ran out of the door, and ran as far and as fast as i could to get away from them. I stopped in a field and a girl walked up to me. She told me that if i didn’t join them they’d make me. I clenched my fists in fear and the energy field around me expanded in a purple hue. She avoided it with all costs and i clenched even harder. She shot bursts of energy at me which were destroyed by the energy field barrier surrounding me. The harder I clenched, the larger the field became. My hands were bleeding from clenching tightly with long nails. I caught her in it by closing my eyes and extending it further. She screamed in agony as she dropped to the ground. her body faded as sparkles. I ran into AVery hicks who i protected and tried to get home. He ended up sacrificing himself to make sure i stayed alive. I made it back to my house and the lights were off. I had been running for a very long time. They stopped chasing me. The kitchen window was left slightly ajar and chester jumped from it. Corwin killed him with his energy field and told me that wasn’t chester. He told me I needed to run and find mom, and ran away. I turned around to face the door again but found instead a man wearing a cowboy hat with a creepy smile plastered on his face. He said that master wanted me to join them and i got scared. I clenched my fists and he walked through the energy field. Caitlin placed her hand on the back of his head and he fell to the ground and disintegrated into sparkles. Cole was rising from the floor, and she grabbed my hand. We burst out the door and made our way back to the school. He laughed and followed us. Mom found us on the way and drove us to the school. she said that this was never supposed to happen and the school was supposed to keep us safe. When we got there caitlin, corwin, and mom all stayed in the car as i got out. I asked them what they were doing and they looked at me with sad eyes. We can’t go with you anymore, they said, you have to do this alone. please save us okay? I ran into the school crying. I stopped in the middle of the ballroom where all of the bodies of the normal students lay dead. The evil people came rushing in and i screamed with my fists clenched, hands bleeding, eyes crying, and i screamed with all of my might. I killed them with my energy field all at once. they screamed in pain as i let my pain and sorrow flow from within me. I fainted from the exhaustion of doing that for so long. i collapsed with the pain of knowing i couldn’t save them. I couldn’t save any of them. I was left alone in the middle of a circle crying my eyes out. Cole came up to me and picked me up with his energy field. He looked at me with so much fear and curiosity in his eyes. I woke up in chains. I was sitting in a chair where i couldn’t move my hands. He entered the room. He brought up a deal. If i did everything he wanted I could save the people i loved. I could save my family, jacobie, and any of the other survivors. I sat there saying nothing. I looked at him with so much disgust. By saving them he meant killing them. Their salvation would be to die. I closed my eyes and began to cry again. My energy field grew. Melancholy music began to emanate from me. As i continued to cry i felt some sort of clothing being weaved from the energy. It replaced the hoodie that i had (looked like medusa’s from soul eater) with the ascendant armor i have in dragonfable. I opened my eyes and Cole was on the ground cowering in fear. I ran out of the room as he screamed and sent the evil people after me. Something overtook me and i ran to where my friends and family were being held. I cried out as I burst in and found them barely alive. I ran to jacobie and he smiled at me. He croaked you came back for me. Thank you. You’ve saved me, you saved all of us. His eyes glazed over and the souls of everyone floated from their bodies as they were fading to nothing but sparkles. All of them rushed toward me. I was crying so hard that my energy field expanded and killed everyone who had hurt me and the people i loved. the souls of them were with me all of the way. they cried tears of joy that i had come and saved them. they were finally free. I couldn’t help but scream i’m sorry. i wasn’t there in time to keep any of you from dying. I wasn’t there to heal you and make sure everyone was okay. I was too late. They all told me that they were happy and free, and that they would be with me in my heart no matter what i did. they would always love me and thank me for everything i did for them. for every smile i put on their faces. For every time i gave them hope. I ran to the roof of the building and met Cole. He was terrified that i would kill him, but i didn’t. I just looked at him and hugged him. He was astonished. After everything he put me through i hugged him. i showed him kindness even though he destroyed everything i had. He looked at me and my crying face and said that he had no regrets. He jumped off the roof bringing me with him. my energy field became wings on my back and i landed softly on the ground. His life force was fading and the my wings sang him to sleep. A delicate melody to end his suffering. He too became sparkles. I collapsed on the ground and jacobie materialized in front of me. slowly but surely everyone began appearing behind him. he crouched down and pulled my chin up. He smiled at me so brightly and so filled with love. You’re saying goodbye now aren’t you? All of you are going to leave? He shook his head and laughed. We’re moving on yes. But not saying goodbye. So please take some time out of your day to think of us--me--and know that we all love you so much. I began shaking as the tears poured down my cheeks. The clouds followed suit and i sat on the sidewalk alone with a pair of royal purple full on headphones in my hands. I put them on and listened to the soft melody left behind by those i held closest to my heart. May 29, 2014 > Read Dream Analysis
Dreamed I was walking to the end of a road, exhausted. The sky was gray and overcast, and I could hear the sea nearby, though I could not see it. At the road's end was a slight rise and a stone fence with a gate. When I reached the gate, at the top of that rise, the sky lifted. Inside the gate was a house, and a lawn of the kind of impossibly bright green you only see when the light comes out after a storm. The house was old, dark stone, well-built and close-fitted, with a slate roof, wooden trim that might have been brown, or perhaps just soaked from the storm. The door was open, someone standing in the doorway, facing away from me. I opened the gate and stepped onto the gravel path from gate to door, and I could see the figure well enough to see it was a woman in a red dress, wearing a straw hat, but not well enough to tell who it was, just that my exhaustion dropped away and I began to run up the path. As I got closer, the figure in the doorway turned. It was you, and if the clouds had lifted at the gate, when you smiled the sun came out. October 03, 2012 > Read Dream Analysis
Feeling of total exhaustion,of being taken care of but not wanting it August 15, 2012 > Read Dream Analysis