Dream of

I was reversing out of our gate recklessly in a vehicle i don't even possess and it was leaking oil very badly. My late husband shouted to me to stop and that we don't have the money to fix the car. I drove the vehicle into the driveway and got out and held a pistol to my tempel and told my gardener i was going to shoot myself. The next thing i was cooking food for a large group of people but my husband was still standing in the garage.