Dreams i felt

This was about something that looked like a dog but I felt this was not true. Whatever it was seemed evil. i was in a store that had been turned into our house. The glass display windows and doors were still there so everyone could see into the house. We could also see everything outside. I see a black and white dog trying to get in through the glass door. The tighter I tried to hold the door closed the easier it was for the dog to become liquid like and seep through the cracks of the door. It was able to get in far enough to nip me on the side of my face. Once the dog was inside my father came out of another room and saw a child kneeling next to my bed. I knew this was not a child. I felt the dog and transformed itself into the child. I still felt the evil in the child was the same evil that had existed when it was a dog. I kept trying to communicate this to my father but could not speak the words.

I live in a suburban neighborhood and there is a bike trail through the back, there are woods and a river you can walk back too, but so much unexplored area back there. I was back there by the river and my boyfriend came back there, but to get to me he had to drop down an embankment to reach me. He wanted me to go somewhere with him, but I told him no, that I was busy, climbed the embankment and left him there. The next thing I know Im waking up in my room and I see my mom and I ask her "where is Izzy?" (my boyfriend ). She told me he is dead. kinda see in my mind him surrounded by three guys with guns, in the woods where I last saw him. He ended up getting shot and left there, and an ambulance couldnt get to him in time. I instantly thought that if I had went with him or stayed that I couldve called the ambulance and saved him in time. but I wasnt and now he is gone. I could kinda picture him laying dead in a morgue somewhere but I wasnt allowed to go see him for some reason. I remember feeling lost and utterly alone and endless amounts of crying to where it hurt so bad (this dream felt extremely real). He is from miami and was for some reason living with me in MD. Next in my dreamt I checked the obituary, there was a full page for him and a picture of his family, but the picture was blown up so big and fuzzy and it made me sad that the quality was bad. Underneath it said his name , both date to date of death, and something his family wrote along the lines of "this will make our family stronger". His family wouldnt talk to me and I realized I would never see them again. I was surrounded with the feeling that I would never see him again or be with him again and it killed me and I wanted to die, I was screaming and crying to someone (Im not sure who it was, I couldnt see their face) saying "I was going to marry him! We were happy! We were going to be together forever! I love him!". The next thing I knew I was walking around Walmart with my boyfriend and no one could see him, I felt a little bit of happiness but was still sad, we walked by halloween costumes and I remember seeing a big pink rabbit costume. He said to me "are you happy?" and I told him "not really" and he said" well I dont know Ashleigh, this is the best I can do" and I was so overwhelmed with a feeling of being forever alone and missing him so bad and wanting him so bad. It was one of the realest feeling dreams I have ever had.

I was at the place I had just moved from but am still renting. It started raining on my mail, which had fallen from the mailbox to the ground. I soon found the body of myself, naked on the ground, in a fetal position, beside the mail and getting rained on. I picked "her" up and put her on the porch to slide her in the front door. I pushed her toward the door, but she slid back toward me and over the porch into a round hole about 18 feet deep that tapered inward as it went down. I felt compelled to cover in the hole, though she (I) was still alive lying down there in the fetal position. I didn't want to cover her up because that meant she would die, so I kept trying to figure out how to not do it. I woke up before I made a decision.

I have been having dreams about my old friends from the place I used to live a couple years back. I spotted them at a school assembly of some sort, along with my brother in the crowd and sitting next to him was my ex-crush. I saw that my old friends were in the middle of the stage, way behind the principle (where they shouldn't be) yet no one was bothered by this, so I nervously walked up to them wondering what they would think of me and if would recognize me. My bubbly past friend Brooke looked me up and down- then hugged me so hard and began laughing and crying. My other old friend Miranda was happy that she met me again, but refused to hug me. Later on, after we were talking and listening to the assembly- then Miranda quietly said across the entire school gym assembly "You look familiar, what's your name?" to my ex-crush. And somehow, everyone in the gym heard her and my ex crush answered. But it was not even his full real name. His last name was different. Next thing I know the assembly is coming to an end, and I saw Miranda wearing the scarf that my ex-crush had on. I told Brooke I didn't know how I felt about that, and she began consoling me. Then that's really all I can recall.

I walked into H’s classroom. I was wearing jeans, and a black sweater with a zip at the top. I walked across the front of the room and then to the back right corner. I thought I saw an open seat near Pig, but as I drew nearer I noticed an article of clothing on that seat. It was taken. I then went over to the back left corner of the room, and there I found a seat. It was near Bottle Cap Guy. I talked to him a bit, but about what I can’t recall. I had a black binder on the floor. Pig sat on that binder. I said timidly, "Pig, you're sitting on my binder. That's not good." I asked her to get off it. She obliged. Later, I left the room and headed down the hall to where the stairs are – the ones that lead down to the woodshop hall. They were much larger than they are in real life, and slightly curved. Pig was coming up those stairs toward me, holding a baby. The baby looked...pristine? Pig didn't pay me much attention as she passed. After Pig, I then had to wait for a class of little kids as they made their way up the middle of the stairs. There was another class waiting to go up, but I set off down the stairs before they started up. As I went down, I saw an old man struggling mightily along the rails to get up the stairs, about 10-15 steps from the top. I debated whether I should help him, and decided he would be fine, so I continued on. There was a teacher at the bottom next to the kids, looking at me strangely. Judging me, perhaps. At the bottom of the stairs, I found myself in a sort of "Dream" Vegas. I had a sunken feeling. I was so far from getting there, and it really sunk in then. I felt depressed as I meandered around this basement casino. I thought of what it would be like to do an interview about poker. "We" was a word I imagined using in the interview...Referring to "we poker players", probably. I thought about speaking strongly rather than timidly – of being a strong character rather than a weak and pathetic one.