Forgot the words in the play for my final exam in drama class. The whole class laughed at me and I started crying. April 03, 2012 > Read Dream Analysis
I had a dream isaw a friend she mentioned she&a lady named jocelyn had no way to work. The lady who she mentioned was my ex boyfriend /lover... Baby mother. I asked her "oh Ians babymother" she blurted out yes&ihad a fight with jocelyn&iwhooped her ass but ian hes in jail! The scene shifted to a jailhouse.we were there in an instant...my friend bammed on a glass wall &got his attention he said"hi"in a boredom voice..she pointed to me and when he realized it was me he stood up but i ran to the other side to get a better view but for some odd reason we couldnt. Before iknew it i awoke from that dream&the only thing on my mind was that he's in jail. Ian&I havent talked since may26.we talked for almost an hour at 4a.m we had a heart to heart talk he finally told me the things he was goin through&how sorry he is because i deserved better than him he emphasised &sounded as if he was soon to brake down in tears. He told me his heart is with me¬ with jocelyn he just doesnt have anywhere to stay.that same day bout 5a.m he brought me some money to pay my bills he gave me a kiss&said"ilove you helen" tho march29 He broke up with me because jocelyn had started drama betweenIan&I but we were still seeing one another talking about our issues. he said he wanted to get back with me&do it over again but i rejected the offer because iwas still severly hurt by the thigs he did to me&couldnt find it in my heart to forgive him just yet or trust him. June 15, 2012 > Read Dream Analysis
I went back to visit my old high school Highvale SC and found Alex Walkinshaw the actor in the library in front of the computer doing some homework. He was an actor in The Bill; the UK tv drama I'm obsess with. He immediately recognise me and said 'hi' and gave me a hug. I ask him when he is going to graduate and he said "I still have a few years to go, I'm in year 10." I put my head on his shoulder. We hug for longer and the bell went. I told him I'll see him next time and slowly let him go. May 25, 2012 > Read Dream Analysis