Understand My Dreams

Dreams hugging

We are hugging, wrapped in each others arms, feeling safe, feeling whole. The energy is so passionate, so pure and so strong that it is nearly tangible. My eyes are closed and I'm pressed up against him, feeling his heart beat, the rise and fall of his chest, his strong arms around me; I melt into him. I focus, and feel - the feeling we've known before, that we've shared before. It is a complete high, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I feel our energy transfer, as if each cell has found its reciprocal messenger, has become fully charged, and begins to transform us into a unit, more powerful and strong than two separate entities. I am just taking in the moment, so content we have found each other again, so grateful that after all we've been through, after a horrible falling out, we could see past it and identify our true feelings. I hold on to him so tightly because I want this moment to last forever, I want to absorb it all. I hold him so close, afraid to let go- as if afraid that if we should disconnect physically, we will drift apart and will have to struggle to find our way back again. My head is tucked on his shoulder, he leans his head back so I readjust and my eyes meet his. He is silent for a moment as we just connect. Our eyes are bright, full of love and life. Finally, he breaks the silence and says 'Do you realize how much I love you?' almost with a hint of sadness knowing we had lost our way. With that simple phrase, although he doesn't verbalize it, there is a mutual understanding, a mental communication that he doesn't just mean 'I love you' but also that he has missed me, that he's genuinely sorry for the hurt we both felt. I squeeze him a little tighter as the corners of my mouth curl up and slowly reveal a familiar grin, wide and pure. I reply 'Well, you came back didn't you?' We hug each other even tighter and he whispers in my ear 'I never really left'.

Finally the man came back and took the cuffs off of me. I walked out the gymnasium from the back door and I found myself in my middle school's (Intermediate School) hallway (the one that I use to practice gymnastics in when I was in middle school) I saw Obama wearing a white apron and had a tray with drinks in it (I think it was tea), he was taking it into a room as if he had guests over, I casually said goodbye to him, I was very tired so I said to him as I was leaving "I just want to sleep". I walked outdoors to find myself at my elementary school, only instead of the yard, it was an ocean. It was beautiful and then I saw a car sinking in the ocean. I rushed to the beach and saw some people pointing and talking about the accident and some other people in the water pulling out a girl out of the car. She was all socked up and wet but she was standing on top of the sinking car and the rescuers were holding her. After that, while I was standing on the white soft sand on the beach, I suddenly felt a breeze and I found myself floating in the air. Everyone started looking at me. I smiled and started flying around. As I was flying, I decided to go towards the cafeteria, I was so happy, so free and having so much fun. I was so much in control that I decided to lay on my back as I was flying. Then, I suddenly saw my great grandmother (who died when I was twelve). She was sitting on a whit bench, she looked exactly like she did when she was alive but she was crippled in my dream. She hand her knees up in her stomach, she wasn't talking or moving but when I called her name, she moved her eyes and looked at me. She didn't recognize me and I got very upset. I held her and tried to talk to her then I helped her up in a standing position and I hugged her so tight. After hugging her, I let go of her and she suddenly was no longer old! She transferred into a little girl, her skin was so smooth, her hair was parted in the middle and braided to the sides. She was around seven or eight years old and she started running around and playing with an invisible person that I couldn't see but she could. However, she still could not see me.

I was dreaming of what seemed like my very first boyfriend from over 15 yrs ago. He was white and had a motorcycle. He bought a house for us and we were slowly starting to renovate it together, when he drove off to go to the store to pick up something. Then somebody had called me telling me he was in an accident and in the hospital. By the time I got there he had died. I was so heartbroken and went back to the house he had bought for us. I kept renovating like he had planned on doing. Then I saw what was his ghost leaving me messages and hugging me tight. Then I noticed he had the same catheter for dialysis as my current fiance has. Yet, my fiance is black. It felt like it was a mix between both of them. Anyway... I kept crying and crying and the pain of having lost my love felt so real. All of a sudden my father came by and brought me laundry my (ex) boyfriend had washed last and pictures of me and him, so I kept crying even more. My father, which lives in another country, came to comfort me. Yet, the ghost was still present and kept drawing me messages on the kitchen table telling me how much he loves me. It felt so real and I woke up feeling very odd and sad. I don't even know if the love in my dream was my ex from over 15 yrs ago or my fiance from now. They both completely different, but in my dream it was like a mix of.them. what does that mean?

After that, while I was standing on the white soft sand on the beach, I suddenly felt a breeze and I found myself floating in the air. Everyone started looking at me. I smiled and started flying around. As I was flying, I decided to go towards the cafeteria, I was so happy, so free and having so much fun. I was so much in control that I decided to lay on my back as I was flying. Then, I suddenly saw my great grandmother (who died when I was twelve). She was sitting on a whit bench, she looked exactly like she did when she was alive but she was crippled in my dream. She hand her knees up in her stomach, she wasn't talking or moving but when I called her name, she moved her eyes and looked at me. She didn't recognize me and I got very upset. I held her and tried to talk to her then I helped her up in a standing position and I hugged her so tight. After hugging her, I let go of her and she suddenly was no longer old! She transferred into a little girl, her skin was so smooth, her hair was parted in the middle and braided to the sides. She was around seven or eight years old and she started running around and playing with an invisible person that I couldn't see but she could. However, she still could not see me.

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