Understand My Dreams

Dreams college

I am on a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule of taking estrogen pills and I sing in a choir on the same days. I have to write down in a journal my dairy intake. Then I went to a house party hosted by a friend from college. I have a crush on her brother, but there was another guy interested in me. He was African American and showing me affection and giving me lots of drinks to get drunk. The guy I had a crush on was in another room playing video games, and when I felt I needed him to protect me from this other guy, I held on to his arm, trying to touch him in many ways. The guy I had a crush on finally helped me and saved me from the African American guy from getting too far sexually with me because I am a virgin. I thought about having sex for the first time on my wedding night.

I recently dreamt of a crowded airport terminal which had only elevators for means of transportation. I was young and was saying goodbye to my older adopted brother, whom was dressed in an official uniform similar to a marine's. He told me he was leaving me alone in order for us to have a better life. The place he was going was corrupt but no one knew at the time. Years later I was saying goodbye to my guy friend (We constantly flirted with each other until he left for college recently) at the same terminal but to a different destination. I was making sure he had everything when an unfamiliar face called me and I ran to her excited. We talked and I completely ignored my friend's upset and jealous calls to me. Finally he left and once I realized he was gone I desperately tried to push through the crowd to get to him but just missed with the elevator doors closing at the tips of my fingers. I hung my head and began to cry when I felt his arms wrap around my stomach and his face nuzzle in my neck with a smile on his face. He asked if he really thought he'd leave me without a proper goodbye and I smiled at him. He then left me and i watched him leave happily.

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