Dreams real life

I was dreaming a lot of things in one dream. There was a lot of discontinuity. First, I was at my college, waiting to have some exam. Then, There was a boat crash, and a chopper fell onto the beach. And i was in a small watercraft and I passed a fish that was cought by the boat that crashed, and by passing it, I passed through the cord that was holding the fish. Second thing, I am a maidservent to a wealthy family living on that beach, I am looking over the youngest son, while in love with the oldest(who is my real life crush). And I am always with the crush, chasing him, to be around him. But he likes me. And helps me. Then, he makes a wound with a knife on my palms, because I need to disinfect my palms, and I am rubbing my bloody palms like I am washing them. And he is with me.

I was on a boat waiting for an ex lover, now friend. He lived on the boat ( in real life he manages a small ferry company) and I was maybe doing homework (?) Though I am not actually in school. Anyhow the boat sinks while I am on it. So I order a new one and I call the company to try and switch it out and the woman says"are you sure you want to put 2000 down on a boat?" And I was like "well it isnt my fault." But I was worried a little that he might think it was my fault. Cause it sank while I was on it.

I walked into H’s classroom. I was wearing jeans, and a black sweater with a zip at the top. I walked across the front of the room and then to the back right corner. I thought I saw an open seat near Pig, but as I drew nearer I noticed an article of clothing on that seat. It was taken. I then went over to the back left corner of the room, and there I found a seat. It was near Bottle Cap Guy. I talked to him a bit, but about what I can’t recall. I had a black binder on the floor. Pig sat on that binder. I said timidly, "Pig, you're sitting on my binder. That's not good." I asked her to get off it. She obliged. Later, I left the room and headed down the hall to where the stairs are – the ones that lead down to the woodshop hall. They were much larger than they are in real life, and slightly curved. Pig was coming up those stairs toward me, holding a baby. The baby looked...pristine? Pig didn't pay me much attention as she passed. After Pig, I then had to wait for a class of little kids as they made their way up the middle of the stairs. There was another class waiting to go up, but I set off down the stairs before they started up. As I went down, I saw an old man struggling mightily along the rails to get up the stairs, about 10-15 steps from the top. I debated whether I should help him, and decided he would be fine, so I continued on. There was a teacher at the bottom next to the kids, looking at me strangely. Judging me, perhaps. At the bottom of the stairs, I found myself in a sort of "Dream" Vegas. I had a sunken feeling. I was so far from getting there, and it really sunk in then. I felt depressed as I meandered around this basement casino. I thought of what it would be like to do an interview about poker. "We" was a word I imagined using in the interview...Referring to "we poker players", probably. I thought about speaking strongly rather than timidly – of being a strong character rather than a weak and pathetic one.

I was dreaming of petting my cat, and in real life put my hand over my husbands face and tried to suffercate him, when he yelled I woke up and I told him I was rubbing his hair, after falling asleep I tried it a second time.

I dreamed about my high school crush, this is a recurring, although it's been 8 years since we last saw each other, but i still see him in my dreams at least a few times a year. I'm happily married, no kids, but every time I see him in my dream, I can't help but wonder what it means. I also learned from my friend (we have mutual friends) that he's also engaged in real life.