Dreams muscles

My ex boyfriend of 7 months asked me to marry him and I said yes. Then my body jumped into a classroom setting with the girl he kind of sort of likes now who is ALSO one of my suitmates in college. After we broke up he started to somewhat like her and now I don't even know what's going on with them! But in this classroom, she was on the phone and said, "I'm seeing Zac this weekend. Yeah, we're going to try this relationship thing but move really, really slow." And I ran out of the room and my suitmate and my friend Jenifer came running after me and I told them I wanted to leave. Then as we got back to our dorm rooms, I called Zac and asked him and he said I had to understand where he was coming from and not get mad. He then proceeded to tell me that him and Sydney had oral sex. I started freaking out and crying hysterically and I ran into her room and started screaming at her saying, "he was the man i wanted to marry, how could you do this to me?" and she kept repeating, "I don't know what you're talking about." Then after more screaming, I woke up. The strange thing is? Everything felt so real. When I woke up I was even THANKFUL that was just a dream. In my dream, I could feel every angry feeling, my muscles tightening up, the hysterical crying, the crushed heart. I could even feel myself losing my voice the more I yelled. I'm really into figuring out my dreams and what they mean, but this is the worst nightmare I've ever had in my life and I could really use some help...

A fat lady with no skin, only her muscles showing, and grey wings walks in place while reaching for a babies hanging by imbilical cords from a tree.

All of my ex boyfriend s and all men who have ever expressed romantic feelings for me gathered in a cabin in the woods. I somehow wandered out there and found them all. They asked me if i would sit and listen to them all tell me what they had done wrong when we were together or talking and why i belonged with them specifically. After all the explinations i went for a walk in the woods. But one of my ex boyfriend s who wasnt at the cabin followed me trapped me and locked me in a shack with an alligator. i escaped the alligator with serious injuries. Three of my ex boyfriend s and one of my good friends who recently revealed having feelings for me all took care of me and held me while i healed. When i woke up they asked me to choose one of them to be with. Before i could choose i woke up with sore muscles, tears on face and sweat all over me.